People often find my life and my work in particular, fascinating. It is probably because I really love what I do and I am passionate about it. I have experiences which I cannot even share sometimes for fear of being called “weird” or to avoid being questioned on its authenticity because it is not part of their belief system or reality. Being a medium is very much about being open to experiences that the Spirit world want to share with us. We get to astral travel, connect with spirit in every shape or form, hear, see or even taste, as our senses are heightened.
Growing up as a child in Malaysia, I used to grapple with the dark and sleeping alone. I had times where I would wet the bed because I was absolutely terrified of my experiences. I mean wouldn’t you be if you saw a being move up around the ceiling? Feel a tightening sensation spread across your entire body? Now, what if I told you that I had just got into bed so was awake and my eyes was CLOSED but I could see through my eyelids? I could see every detail of the room. This was because my third eye had already developed when I was ten I could see through it sometimes.
After my rigorous training and spiritual development, which led to working professionally as a Medium, I am never afraid of Spirit. I don’t feel the same way about “visitors” as when i was a child. I know that tightening sensation now was energy and the being I saw was probably a guide or from a different dimension. If only I knew what I know now then!
On Friday I unintentionally stayed up awake. I had a workshop to run in the morning so I was keen on an early night. However earlier in the day, my mother called to remind me to try to stay awake for Mahashivatri – a night in tribute to Shiva which takes place before a new moon. The theme for this annual spiritual celebration is to overcome darkness and ignorance. This is a very important event for those who believe in the mind, body and spirit connection. Shiva is seen as the master that teaches, improves and oversees this aspect of humanity. People fast, eat vegetarian food, meditate, chant and spend the time on self reflection. Most temples are awash with lights, colour and people sitting with their legs crossed and spines straight throughout the night. There are 12 Shivaratri per year but the main one, usually falls in February or March. This year it was on February 24th. This special day is huge for those on the spiritual path as Shiva, helps to awaken new spiritual awareness and gifts.
With all of this in mind, I decided that I couldn’t stay awake so I went to bed armed with some guided sleep meditation music. After tossing and turning, I decided to sit up in bed and listen to some Shiva chants from my Youtube channel. I am hesitating as I write this as I know it will sounds completely crazy!
I felt my soul leave my body and there was a short moment of grief which was overtaken by excitement. I then saw below me, the road outside my house. I continued to travel up and then I felt myself, so light and weightless, travel further up into the sky. After a moment, darkness surrounded me and I thought that was it. I then realised I was in a cave. It was a big one with a lot of space around me. I could’t see the top but the wall around me had what I initially thought was graffiti but on closer inspection, turned out to be pre-historic drawings.
I could sense water running close by but my attention was taken over by the fresh air and light that I suddenly felt. I saw the opening and then heard the shriek of the flying prehistoric animal that flew past me. I saw it in the distance and then the massive landscape below me. It was a beautiful sight and simply indescribable. I have had out of body (OOB) experiences before but never so vivid and to a different time in history.
Once I felt I was back on the bed again, I saw my father standing near me and next to him, a guide and someone else. Before I could take that all in, waves of green, white and sparkly yellow light spilled into the room. The door was closed, the curtains drawn and my eyes were shut.
The lights formed long continuous and intersected lines moved and danced around me. I felt so honoured and happy to be a witness to this special scene in front of me. In the corner of my eye I saw several other lights but these were different. They were like the lights of stars we see in the sky. Bright, determined and powerful. These I knew were lights of Spirit and Angels. They sparkled and stayed passive while the green/white light made patterns around me. They reminded me of the Aurora Borealis lights.
There were a few more other things that happened that night but thankfully I managed to fall asleep at 5.30am and had less than three hours of sleep before my event. I didn’t feel tired at all while I was teaching and I came home really energised.
On Saturday night, I was filled with so much energy, and I knew one of my guides wanted to work with me. So I asked my husband to go off to bed while I picked up my paint brushes and set to work until 4am.
I just knew I had to paint a robin but I never paint animals or landscape. My art is from inspiration so I was a little apprehensive. I couldn’t believe how easily the robin appeared on the canvas. A very curious, inquisitive, and friendly fella who looks like he has had a rough time. Somehow he found this little haven away from the rain to rest.
While robins are often referred to as spirit signs, they are in Shamanism, a sign of growth and renewal. If you look back at the New Moon & Solar Eclipse guide from Friday, there is a theme about renewal there. Scruffy brings with him a message about letting go of the past to be able to move forward in the present. When we work to release the past, then you can refresh and go on your new journey. He also helps with self expression and working hard but also resting. We must listen to our bodies and the signs, to know when to push ourselves and when to take time off.
Scruffy wants us to know that our spirit family and friends are working hard to send us healing, in every possible way. From a chance meeting with someone who makes you smile, to unexpected abundance to closure on a disagreement. Believe that change is coming to your life and things will work out.
Scruffy is currently on sale at the Craft Coop in Marlow High Street.
