October’s New Moon – The Light after the Struggle

October’s New Moon – The Light after the Struggle

This year has seen a lot of people going back to the past to find answers and to readjust their path in order to re-imagine their future. In doing so, some have felt a overwhelming feeling of failure, unease and even dealt with their pride  being hurt. The ego is bruised when we change our paths to something we truly believed in not working out. It is hard to accept, the mind taking charge and making realistic plans. Failure is felt when things don’t go to plan or once you have realised that like the man who tried to get water out of the well, that it was going to take a lot more work as the pail had holes in it. Hot, and sweaty with sore arms, he slogged away to fill the jugs of the cool, clean well water. The pail with the hole was reducing the amount of water per draw. He could either keep doing what he was doing with little result or get a new pail or find something else to use. Alternatively, he could find another water source. These are choices not failures. You can overcome a situation using your internal wisdom and not allow emotions to cloud your judgement. In the same way, some of us are dealing with “letting go” of the security of what you are doing, of the feeling of failure, of change or the fear of something new. 

Our physical body signs can be very revealing. These last week along with the very atmospheric skies over the UK shadows our inner struggles. The darkness within mirrors our experiences outside. People have been in touch this week saying they have been feeling very defeated, angry at times, procrastinating, depressed, fuzzy head and another even said some said they felt wobbly. Imagine there is a tug of war happening inside your body. How would it feel? One end pulling on the robe and the other holding on to the rope for dear life. Obviously there would be tension, agony and the sheer will power of both sides to hold on to the rope wouldn’t you?  Your body is merely reacting to what is going on in your mind and spiritual layer.

We are being asked to take a step back from our situation and to review it with clear eyes and less attachment. The more you do this, the easier it will become. If we view it as “failure” then it attracts other mental negativity that only leads to a darker place mentally. We become too emotional and our actions will be driven from the wrong place. Using logic and a practical approach allows us to see things for what they are and making the adjustments to rectify the situation.

Energetically, this is happening for a big reason as this entire week, has been about “Good” vs “Evil”. Today ends the victory of good and Hindus around the world will celebrate Diwali which is the festival of lights. According to Hindu mythology, a super powerful demon called Narakasura who unleashed unimaginable pain and suffering to the world, was killed by Goddess Kali. who is a powerful, albeit scarier avatar of the Gods merged together. She is the warrior Goddess who was created to go to war, to save the world, to bring salvation to mankind. This is why her image often depicts her holding the bloody head of Narakasura. Image result for kali Simply put, the demon had declared to all the male Gods who tried to fight him and failed, that “No man can kill me”.  He was arrogant enough to dismiss feminine power and therefore was defeated by Kali who incorporated both male and female energies. Hindus fast and pray for light into their lives, deal with the darkness within before today, when the dawn breaks to bring positivity and success. The Goddess of success and luck, Lakshmi is celebrated on the last few days to pray for happiness, fortune and success in all aspects of their lives. 

In some ways, festival of lights is the war of inner darkness, to ward off bad luck and and dedicating time and space to positive thinking. This translate to our modern times as using knowledge and intuition to overcome our own darkness. When there is darkness there is light. So when there is doubt, trust your intuition and don’t be afraid to step into the bright light where there is clarity.

The New Moon which arrives tomorrow (October 19) offers us a new cycle of “letting go” and transformation which will be felt strongly by the Full Moon which falls on November 4th. You can help the universe by writing down your situation or what is holding you back on a piece of paper and go outside tomorrow evening to burn the paper. Hold the thought in your mind that you want to let go and welcome help from the universe. The veils between our two worlds are thinning so there is no doubt that our Spirit people, Angels and the universal force will be there to lend us a hand. Keep your thoughts positive, believe there is good change happening and everything will work out for the best. Be open to the fact that it may not be exactly how you want it, as the more we relinquish control, then the easier it is for the powers that may be, to deliver. 

So why is this happening and why now? There is a bigger picture for us to open our awareness to. There is a next level of consciousness and experience but we cannot get there if we are holding on to fear and same old believes. The world is changing and there is a huge shift of thinking coming our way. We have often questioned how human evolution was going to take place, are we going to turn into zebras or three eyed aliens? What next after the ape? Well according to my awareness, the evolution will come in changes to mindset, to the way we think and feel. New thought processes and being able to accept the inevitable such as the possibility of Spirit being in the same space as us will be more accepted and mainstream. 

So it starts with us now. Being able to shift our consciousness will be important. We are being shaken to the core to make ourselves a lot more flexible and accepting for what is around the corner. There are exciting times ahead for all of us and there is a universal feeling of “something big” is about to happen. 

It is also a good time to make space for yourself and meditate. I love this very uplifting and super powerful mantra which is mantra of mantras. The music and the singers voice is so calming and gentle which really changes the energy around me when I listen to the music. You can click to listen to it here. I am actually listening to it as I write this guidance. 

With that I wish you all a lovely Diwali and may the light be always in your life. 

Lots of love and blessings, 

Angela 

How I struggled to hear myself until I was made to LISTEN

How I struggled to hear myself until I was made to LISTEN

In November’s issue of Fate & Fortune magazine, you will see a centre spread on someone you know…..ME! I was approached to speak about how I became a Medium or my journey rather. After a considerable amount of pondering as I didn’t want it to be sensationalist type of journalism as it wasn’t you usual story. It is not that I started suddenly seeing spirits. On the contrary, I was well aware of them as a toddler but realised they were in fact spirits at the tender age of 10. I struggled with this awareness for almost all of my life. I hated this gift but I also helped people along the way. I didn’t have anyone to help me understand it or mentor me so I was doing things properly. These days we have articles, workshops, teachers and information at the click of the “search” button. When I was growing up, spirits were always seen as scary, evil and negative while mediums were often manipulative and untrustworthy. I should know as I went to see almost every medium in Malaysia as my mother was alwayis searching for help and answers. But in turn I was sexually molested by one, made to drink chicken blood by another, cheated out of money and another one encouraged my parents to destroy all of my artwork and paintings in the 90’s as he claimed it was all “evil”.

The scariest experience I had was with a medium/holyman who decided I was indeed possessed and therefore arranged for a ceremony to rid me of the evil spirit. All I had done was accompany a work mate who was trying to get extra magic to get her food business she ran on the side with her husband, successful. As I sat there, I felt a weird presence in the room and next thing I know I fainted and I woke up to him saying I was possessed. I was held down and all sorts of weird things being said. As you can imagine, I was incredibly scared and concerned that this “spirit” was the cause of some bad luck in my life. I went home and told my family and they too were anxious and agreed to the ceremony. On the said day we walked into the room, terrified and felt we were at the mercy of this man and his assistants. They asked me to lie down I felt very weak and I felt a blackness come over me as the holyman continued to chant. I think I fell into a deep sleep or lost consciousness but I think I was also given something to drink beforehand. Next thing I know, as I started to regain consciousness, I couldn’t move. My hands, legs and even my head was being held down by loads of men. I could hear the man chanting away and giving instructions to not let me go as apparently the “devil will want to resist and get up”. I also felt someone pricking my feet with a sharp pencil and my toe was in agony. This is a very unnatural and terrifying moment. I wasn’t prepared for what happened next. 

Surrounded by strange men and unable to move, I begin to cry and tried to call for my family. Next thing I knew, water started pouring water on my face. I couldn’t breathe and as I had my mouth open, I started choking on the water. There must have been seven to eight men holding me down and I could see three standing above me with one litre bottles of water continuously pouring water on my face. I screamed as loudly as I could, gargling and choking sounds in between for my family. Each time I did, more water would be poured down to my face. I knew if I didn’t do something that I would drown and die within seconds. “Bobbbbby……save me….this is Angie”  I choked out. 

I heard the holyman say “its the devil hahhaha…..nice try, don’t listen to it. Its very clever trying to make us believe its her” and I screamed “Nooooo its me” and I heard my mother screaming to be let inside the room. I heard her say to my friend “She is going to die…..I thought you were her friend” and then I heard my father push in shouted at the man to stop. I cannot tell you how relieved I was as I was already starting to feel dizzy and had so much water in my nose, mouth and throat that I knew with certain that a second more I would could have died on that cold cemented floor.  

I never spoke to that friend again nor did I seek the help of a charlatan ever again. She did nothing to help me and in fact stopped my family from entering the room. She shrugged off the whole thing and didn’t seem to understand how scared I was. I shut myself out from spiritual matters and focused on went to temples or churches. My bad luck were merely challenges who made me who I am and they were certainly nothing to do with curses or spells.

So for many years I set aside my spirituality and hated it. This didn’t mean that they stopped appearing or speaking to me. In fact they became more obvious as the years went by. I would get prophetic dreams, messages, signs, see, hear and sense spirit wherever I went. I helped friends, cleared houses, read cards and would get strong feelings about people or situations. People were at times grateful, overwhelmed or scared off. No one really likes someone who “knows” things especially if they are insecure. I wasn’t trained so I went bumbling around life with this burden around my shoulders. 

In September 2013 my life changed, for the better. What I resisted for my whole life came right at me and I was smacked in the face literally to face up to who I was! Sometimes you have to be pushed to the edge to see the truth. I stopped fearing spirits and embraced my calling. Fate & Fortune Magazine

This is the driving force behind my psychic and mediumship workshops. You don’t have to walk through life feeling as though your gifts and abilities are a burden. You don’t have to be scared of spirits. I hope my story has inspired you. Please feel free if you want to ask any questions and if you want information about my next workshop.

Speaking to my father

I was asked to contribute to an article on talking to parents after death. I decided to do this because it was something I do and believe in. In the days before I fully embraced my mediumship, I spoke to my dad to help me heal my grief. I was in such a difficult place emotionally and I was struggling with the situation I found myself in. Trying to deal with the death of someone who had such a strong and definite influence in my life was difficult. People like that leave a huge void. My father was no saint but he was also my saviour in many ways. So I would speak to him in my mind, sometimes ask for answers before going to sleep or even during meditation. I remember very clearly the very first time I was umming and ahing about going to the Arthur Findlay Spiritual college. It was a huge decision for me. The cost was one thing but to dedicate 7 days to try to understand my spirituality and mediumship was a big commitment. The fear that I would go all the way there and find out I wasn’t gifted in anyway was massive. I wanted to go but then I didn’t feel I was good enough. The course was on the Saturday but on Thursday night I was still undecided and hadn’t booked. That night I asked my father — should I go? Is this what I should be doing? I went to bed with more questions than answers. In my dream, my father came into the house and sat down on the dining table. I was sat there with lots of different brochures and leaflets. He sat there with his favourite whisky, speaking to me.. debating the pros and cons. As I was waking up, I heard myself say “go to Arthur Findlay College”. I knew that was the answer to my question the night before. Of course as a skeptic I thought well it was probably my imagination but as I lay there feeling this message, I felt my father’s presence and I had a deep sense of knowing of the details of the dream. I said to myself, well its probably too late anyway as AFC is very international and courses and the rooms tend to be fully booked months in advanced so what chance would I have less than 24 hours before the day? I called them anyway expecting to be rejected and guess what…..they had ONE room left. Someone cancelled their booking so I could take their place ! I have never doubted his support and his messages since that day. He is very much my influence and inspiration in my wonderful journey. It is very apt that this article appears on NYE and on the day I remember him the most.

I would like to comment on the headline which is a tad misleading. I don’t think any of us insisted that our relationship is better now than when they were alive. My case is a little different as a Medium, I can send and receive messages from the Spirit world so yes I have been given knowledge about my father and why he was the way he was, which has allowed me to get past his flaws and there is no longer that barrier which was here in the physical world.Apart from speaking and communicating with him, I also get signs and visits from him. I am humbled and grateful that I do as its been a very important part of my journey so far.

The article does not highlight the fact that I am a Medium and I believe that was meant to be. I would prefer people see the story for what it is — a relationship between a daughter and her father rather than a medium and a contact.

I do hope that anyone reading this today will find some comfort from all of us who shared our stories. I could barely speak to the journalist during the interview as I was so choked up.

Daily Mail article 31/12/15

Daily Mail article 31/12/15

You can read the full article here: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-3379647/The-women-talk-dead-parents-day-insist-relationship-s-better-alive.html#comments

Repeating numbers and coins

Repeating numbers and coins

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One of my dear clients who enjoys reading my blog, sent me a question about seeing numbers and finding coins.  Numbers such as  (111 or 14:14 etc ) have been repeating in a specific pattern for the last couple of months. This has been occurring when searching for something on the internet or looking at the time. And most recently she found coins in the most unexpected places like the bathroom sink or the dresser. No one knew who it belonged to.

First of all we have to understand how spirit sign works. Imagine yourself in the spirit world. You are desperate to communicate with your loved ones, so what do you do? You learn how to manipulate feathers, birds, coins sensations and smells. This is my opinion and my understanding from years of developing. Please note that you will read different opinions on the same subject. I believe that it takes time for spirit to learn how to adapt and to communicate. Just like mediums, they have to understand their tools, learn how to use it and what will work for them. This is why no two communication with spirit is the same. For example at some readings, the information provided would be through visions while another would be only symbols.  They have to understand what the mediums skills are and match that up with their own abilities. There is a lot more we have to understand about spirit and the spirit world.

You need to be aware that someone is trying to get your attention. Once you start asking yourself — why ? What is the reason? Who is trying to reach me? Then it will be easier for them to reach out to you.  I suggest you write when, where and what time these things happen, what was going in your life at that time. Write down WHY?  and watch out for what happens in your dreams. A lot of us miss our messages, answers and guidance that appear in our dreams. I always have a dream book next to my bed. I scribble down thoughts that linger on the moment I wake, words in my mind or just a summary of my dreams.

My father speaks to me through dreams. I have had full conversations with him about issues and would wake up with not the details of the discussion but the solution to the problem.  Seeing numbers and coins is often a sign that someone is  trying to get your attention. It also signals important events or changes in your life. So look at what is happening around you and how this message relates to that situation.

Numbers can be both from Angels as well as from Spirit but I always ask myself does it  matter? They are all energy and they often work in teams to help each  one of us.  The number one is always about the self, about you, the changes, the new ideas, creativity and the challenges that we need to overcome to become one. There are plenty of #numberjunkies out there who wait until the clock strikes 11:11 for a screenshot and get all excited about the changes and magic they are about to get. Don’t be that person! Let it happen naturally and acknowledge it and look at your life.  What are the challenges you are experiencing, what are the changes that you need to improve it?

I feel that spirit chooses coins because they can absorb their energy better . Next time you find a coin , please find a moment that day to meditate with it in your hands. Put on some music  from Dr Nippun Aggrawal such as my favourite and one of the best meditation music. I love it as it is great for focus. Best way to listen to it is via your earphones as the vibrations are delightfully powerful!

As you sit there listening to the chants, feel that coin in your hand, feel its weight, shape and then start to feel its energy. Become aware of who is around you, become aware of the energy around you starting to change. Be passive to any messages or visions that may appear or…thoughts. For example if you are sitting and doing the above and suddenly you start thinking of someone at work. This person may have been causing you issues and damaged your confidence. But you haven’t realised it at a soul level and have been going around with a dark cloud around for the last couple of months. pick-up-pennyThis thought did not just appear. It was put in your mind during this special connection. You may have even experienced a sensation in your throat the same time the thought appeared. There is no such thing as a coincidence with spirit. They would have made you aware of the fact that you need to speak out and take control of the situation rather than just feeling powerless. They brought your attention to the heart of the matter. Collect the coins and put them in a jar or a box. Once it has filled the space you have given them, give them away to charity.

A lot of my writings are channeled to my by spirit guardians who really enjoy the philosophy side of the spirit world and love to explore questions which people may have. They don’t expect everyone to agree with their version as there is no one truth.

Many paths lead to the same place says my main inspiration.