A Medium’s Life is Never “Normal”

A Medium’s Life is Never “Normal”

People often find my life and my work in particular, fascinating. It is probably because I really love what I do and I am passionate about it. I have experiences which I cannot even share sometimes for fear of being called “weird” or to avoid being questioned on its authenticity because it is not part of their belief system or reality. Being a medium is very much about being open to experiences that the Spirit world want to share with us. We get to astral travel, connect with spirit in every shape or form, hear, see or even taste, as our senses are heightened. 

Growing up as a child in Malaysia, I used to grapple with the dark and sleeping alone. I had times where I would wet the bed because I was absolutely terrified of my experiences. I mean wouldn’t you be if you saw a being move up around the ceiling? Feel a tightening sensation  spread across your entire body? Now, what if I told you that I had just got into bed so was awake and my eyes was CLOSED but I could see through my eyelids? I could see every detail of the room. This was because my third eye had already developed when I was ten I could see through it sometimes. 

After my rigorous training and spiritual development, which led to working professionally as a Medium, I am never afraid of Spirit. I don’t feel the same way about “visitors” as when i was a child. I know that tightening sensation now was energy and the being I saw was probably a guide or from a different dimension. If only I knew what I know now then! 

On Friday I unintentionally stayed up awake. I had a workshop to run in the morning so I was keen on an early night. However earlier in the day, my mother called to remind me to try to stay awake for Mahashivatri – a night in tribute to Shiva which takes place before a new moon. The theme for this annual spiritual celebration is to overcome darkness and ignorance. This is a very important event for those who believe in the mind, body and spirit connection. Shiva is seen as the master that teaches, improves and oversees this aspect of humanity. People fast, eat vegetarian food, meditate, chant and spend the time on self reflection. Most temples are awash with lights, colour and people sitting with their legs crossed and spines straight throughout the night. There are 12 Shivaratri per year but the main one, usually falls in February or March. This year it was on February 24th.  This special day is huge for those on the spiritual path as Shiva, helps to awaken new spiritual awareness and gifts. 

With all of this in mind, I decided that I couldn’t stay awake so I went to bed armed with some guided sleep meditation music. After tossing and turning, I decided to sit up in bed and listen to some Shiva chants from my Youtube channel. I am hesitating as I write this as I know it will sounds completely crazy!

I felt my soul leave my body and there was a short moment of grief which was overtaken by excitement. I then saw below me, the road outside my house. I continued to travel up and then I felt myself, so light and weightless, travel further up into the sky.  After a moment, darkness surrounded me and I thought that was it. I then realised I was in a cave. It was a big one with a lot of space around me. I could’t see the top but the wall around me had what I initially thought was graffiti but on closer inspection, turned out to be pre-historic drawings. 

I could sense water running close by but my attention was taken over by the fresh air and light that I suddenly felt. I saw the opening and then heard the shriek of the flying prehistoric animal that flew past me. I saw it in the distance and then the massive landscape below me. It was a beautiful sight and simply indescribable. I have had out of body (OOB) experiences before but never so vivid and to a different time in history.

Once I felt I was back on the bed again, I saw my father standing near me and next to him, a guide and someone else. Before I could take that all in, waves of green, white and sparkly yellow light spilled into the room. The door was closed, the curtains drawn and my eyes were shut. 

The lights formed long continuous and intersected lines moved and danced around me. I felt so honoured and happy to be a witness to this special scene in front of me.  In the corner of my eye I saw several other lights but these were different. They were like the lights of stars we see in the sky. Bright, determined and powerful. These I knew were lights of Spirit and Angels. They sparkled and stayed passive while the green/white light made patterns around me. They reminded me of the Aurora Borealis lights. 

There were a few more other things that happened that night but thankfully I managed to fall asleep at 5.30am and had less than three hours of sleep before my event. I didn’t feel tired at all while I was teaching and I came home really energised. 

On Saturday night, I was filled with so much energy, and I knew one of my guides wanted to work with me. So I asked my husband to go off to bed while I picked up my paint brushes and set to work until 4am.

Original Acrylic on Canvas painting by Angela Mitchell

I just knew I had to paint a robin but I never paint animals or landscape. My art is from inspiration so I was a little apprehensive. I couldn’t believe how easily the robin appeared on the canvas. A very curious, inquisitive, and friendly fella who looks like he has had a rough time. Somehow he found this little haven away from the rain to rest. 

While robins are often referred to as spirit signs, they are in Shamanism, a sign of growth and renewal. If you look back at the New Moon & Solar Eclipse guide from Friday, there is a theme about renewal there. Scruffy brings with him a message about letting go of the past to be able to move forward in the present. When we work to release the past, then you can refresh and go on your new journey. He also helps with self expression and working hard but also resting. We must listen to our bodies and the signs, to know when to push ourselves and when to take time off.

Scruffy wants us to know that our spirit family and friends are working hard to send us healing, in every possible way. From a chance meeting with someone who makes you smile, to unexpected abundance to closure on a disagreement. Believe that change is coming to your life and things will work out.

 

Scruffy is currently on sale at the Craft Coop in Marlow High Street.

7 Things you must do this New Moon!

7 Things you must do this New Moon!

Super charge your ability to manifest and “let go” of things using the Goddess Energy and New Moonhappy-deepavali-2016-photos

Deepavali is the time of enlightenment, love, family, friendship and happiness. It is also a very sparkly and bright time as people will be wearing very colourful and shiny clothes, tables heaving with delicious food, fireworks and light lamps everywhere.
 
It is called the “Festival of Lights” (Deepa means lamp/light and vali means the path or in some interpretations, row).
 
This year it falls on Sunday, October 30th, 2016. Deepavali is the celebration of light over darkness. A time to rejoice as good has won over evil.
 
Houses are cleaned, things thrown or given away, sweets and special food made, invitations sent out, prayers and rituals observed.

So what is the myth or history as to why this wonderful festival the highlight of the Hindu calendar?

Rama & Sita’s return to Ayodhya

One of the main legend behind the celebration is the Return of Sri Ram To Ayodhya. The prince of Ayodhya , Lord Sri Ram’s wife Sita was kidnapped by the evil King of Lamka, Ravana.  Like any loving husband, he tried o free his wife. This turned into a  full fledged war but Sri Ram and his supporters managed to save his wife and defeat the evil King. When they made their way back to Ayodhya, exhausted but relieved, they were greeted by a show of support and love by their subjects. All the houses were light and little diyas (earthen light lamps) lined the path into the kingdom. The love of Sita and Ram is legendary and the people showered them with love, light and flowers to welcome them back.
 
Deepavali is also the incarnation of the  Goddess Lakshmi which falls on the new moon day ( Oct 30th). She is the Goddess of prosperity and brings with her moon energy. She apparently appeared during tussle between the demons and the Gods above the sea, causing deep unrest in the tides and fear in the people around. Her incarnation brought peace, harmony and good news to earth. Today she is worshiped by Hindus and even those who may not know of her significance, as the Goddess to pray for wealth and feminine energy. Lakshmi is traditionally worshiped through a special “puja” on the day of Deepavali. People tend to leave sweets and flowers around her pictures or statue and ask to be blessed with wealth and happiness for the coming year.
 
The death of Narakasura
Krishna said. ‘Narakasura! This is Satyabama…She is actually an incarnation of Bhumadevi…’ Both Satyabama and Narakasura looked at Krishna with surprise as Krishna continued, ‘She incarnated with the special purpose of defeating you…I could never have defeated you…Only Satyabama could…so I pretended to fall unconscious and the rest was done by her…’ Krishna said looking at Satyabama with pride. Satyabama felt a deep understanding within herself. She realized the truth in Krishna’s words. She took Narakasura’s head in her lap and cried out, ‘My son! Why? Why did you have to follow such a dark path…Why did you…’
 
Narakasura stopped Satyabama, ‘No mother! You are not responsible for my choices…I chose wrongly and you fought me for what you believed as right…You have done the right thing…I am glad to call you my mother…’ Narakasura breathed his last….
 
Even to this day, Narakasura’s death is celebrated as the victory of light over darkness…It comes on the second day of Diwali as ‘Naraka chaturdasi’. Diwali which is a festival of lights actually celebrates the triumph of right over the wrong…
 -From the Bhagawat Purana – Courtesy of Pablesmyth
 
What does this mean for me?
That all sounds great but what does this mean to us in a more spiritual context? Remember the New Moon is always the start of the “letting go” process and by the full moon, little by little, we will have these different elements to our lives – people, personality traits, behaviour, old belief patterns, trauma, anger, unhappy memories, pain and even grief that no longer serves purpose in our lives, become clearer and ready to let go. 
 
Everything is supercharged this weekend. Your clarity and vision is enhanced so you will have a clearer list of things you need to release and a definite idea of what you NEED in your life. Goddess Lakshmi is a manifesting enabler but she doesn’t discriminate. So if your thoughts are full of anger, hate and negativity then so be it. You will be unconsciously manifesting it if you are constantly thinking it. Keep your mind full of positive and enthusiastic future thoughts and this will be your manifesting pledge to the universe.
 
The significance of Good over Evil, Light over Darkness — this relates to all of us and spiritually speaking, it is a reminder that whatever your circumstances, light and good is possible. Don’t let your circumstances NOW determine your LATER.  It is very easy to fall into the very human trap of staying in your comfort zone. If you are in a bad place, it is also a “comfortable” place and so many of us find it easier to stay there because we fear the unknown. 
 
As someone who has dealt with depression and trauma for most of my life, I have struggled so much between light and dark. Yes, there were times when I stayed in the dark but I scrambled out in search of the light as I always knew there was a better place. The one thing that has made me stronger and wanting to live another day is HOPE.

Guidance for this weekend and the coming week

How do we take advantage of the amazing gift that is being showered into our very existence this weekend and the week after? What can we do to ensure that we release, shed and walk into the light? Leaving behind all that no longer serves us? Entering the realm of  a positive live, motivation, happiness and wealth?

Below is my power packed 7 step guide to accelerate your manifesting and letting go:

  1. Forgiveness – When you forgive, you let go and release the cords that are attached to you. It may feel that the other person(s) have won but in reality it is you that is winning as you no longer allow them to influence your thinking, how you feel and what you do.
  2. Circle of Love – be with people who make you happy and smile. Be very conscious of how people make you feel. Ask yourself after spending time with someone or a group of people “how do I feel? Happy, drained, angry, sad, belittled? Change who you spend time with. Be uplifted, happy, smile and joyful – not judged, angry, sad or down.
  3. Meditate –  Calm that busy mind of yours with some relaxing music, incense and connect with your inner self. 
  4. Moon ritual – Make some time to do my special moon ritual which takes only a few minutes to do but you will be surprised at the results if you keep at it and believe in it! Get your free copy here.
  5. Goddess prayer – If you have an altar then leave some sweets and flowers for Goddess Lakshmi. You can print off a photo from the internet and use it as your focus.  

Say this little prayer :

Goddess of knowledge and education

Goddess of knowledge and education

Om Mahalakshmyaye Vidmahe, Vishnupriyaye Dhimahi, Tanno Lakshmth Prachodayath

You can also play this chant which gives me goose bumps everything I listen to it as you do your Moon Ritual and chant along with the lady as you go about smudging and cleansing the house.

Say this Lakshmi Gayathri mantra with an open heart and full of love. Imagine that you have this opportunity to speak to her direct and ask her for a happier and prosperous life. Believe it or not, but these mantras were not accessible to common people in India for many centuries as it was a huge secret among the the royals and those close to them. So we are indeed very lucky that this is all available to us so easily.

6. Keep your thoughts positive – When you think of what you want in your life – be positive about it. Just because things haven’t worked out now doesn’t mean it will stay the same. So focus on what you need in your life and believe that it WILL come through!

7.Connect with Mother Earth – whether you go out for a walk in nature, perhaps live close to a beach (or on holiday near one!) or just go out t the garden and walk barefoot on the grass – get close to Mother Nature. Moon energy is radiating this weekend. Get connected!

Happy Diwali, Deepavali, New Moon and Happy Manifesting! 
 

Saraswathi – Goddess of Wisdom and Creativity

My mother was on Whatsapp today to give me instructions on how to celebrate Saraswati puja today. Devi Saraswathi is the Hindu Goddess of Knowledge and Wisdom. Hindu children are generally encouraged (okay, told to!) pray to Ganesha for success, Lakshmi for wealth and mostImage result for saraswati importantly, Saraswathi for help in education. They say that chanting the mantras to the mother of Vedas and of knowledge, music, arts, writing and creativity will remove all the obstacles to success.

Saraswati Puja is an important festival, especially in South India and observed on the last day of the Navratri celebrations. I was reminded today when I was looking for a nice picture of this lovely mother and noticed the peacock. As you may already know, I am also an artist as well as a Medium. One of my most famous and best selling piece is the “Petulant Peacock”  I thought it was lovely to have painted the peacock which is also associated with this gorgeous deity. 

My mother ordered me to do a few things tonight as she thought it would inspire me to paint more inspired paintings and also to help me with my writing. I never question guided words from my mother. I respected her thoughts and value the fact that she is always thinking of me and that she is still with us. At 78, she still thinking about her children, charity work and helping others despite having three big health issues, a triple bypass, a stroke and 3 heart attacks. 

So I got everything ready for dinner and came upstairs to chant the Sanskrit mantra that my mother passed on to me, lit some beautiful sandalwood incense, put some fresh flowers on my altar and left some of my paint brushes under mother’s picture for her blessing. I have to say the chanting really took me to a trance like state and I saw flashes of my father next to me and some lovely messages. I saw a vision of a painting I will do in the near future as well. 

I am so relaxed at the moment and looking to have a nice long sleep tonight. Tomorrow I will be off to London to see Amma at Alexandra Palace. I cannot explain how amazing it is to be hugged by this lovely woman. Amazing energy and so much love for everyone who comes to meet her. 

I need this healing energy and also lots of calm. Busy week ahead with lots of appointments and also preparing to run my workshop – the Goddess Retreat on Saturday. I cannot wait for Saturday as its so exciting always to meet new people and share my love and knowledge with people. It coincides with the full moon on the 16th so we will be having a little full moon ceremony to super charge our affirmations during the day.

How I struggled to hear myself until I was made to LISTEN

How I struggled to hear myself until I was made to LISTEN

In November’s issue of Fate & Fortune magazine, you will see a centre spread on someone you know…..ME! I was approached to speak about how I became a Medium or my journey rather. After a considerable amount of pondering as I didn’t want it to be sensationalist type of journalism as it wasn’t you usual story. It is not that I started suddenly seeing spirits. On the contrary, I was well aware of them as a toddler but realised they were in fact spirits at the tender age of 10. I struggled with this awareness for almost all of my life. I hated this gift but I also helped people along the way. I didn’t have anyone to help me understand it or mentor me so I was doing things properly. These days we have articles, workshops, teachers and information at the click of the “search” button. When I was growing up, spirits were always seen as scary, evil and negative while mediums were often manipulative and untrustworthy. I should know as I went to see almost every medium in Malaysia as my mother was alwayis searching for help and answers. But in turn I was sexually molested by one, made to drink chicken blood by another, cheated out of money and another one encouraged my parents to destroy all of my artwork and paintings in the 90’s as he claimed it was all “evil”.

The scariest experience I had was with a medium/holyman who decided I was indeed possessed and therefore arranged for a ceremony to rid me of the evil spirit. All I had done was accompany a work mate who was trying to get extra magic to get her food business she ran on the side with her husband, successful. As I sat there, I felt a weird presence in the room and next thing I know I fainted and I woke up to him saying I was possessed. I was held down and all sorts of weird things being said. As you can imagine, I was incredibly scared and concerned that this “spirit” was the cause of some bad luck in my life. I went home and told my family and they too were anxious and agreed to the ceremony. On the said day we walked into the room, terrified and felt we were at the mercy of this man and his assistants. They asked me to lie down I felt very weak and I felt a blackness come over me as the holyman continued to chant. I think I fell into a deep sleep or lost consciousness but I think I was also given something to drink beforehand. Next thing I know, as I started to regain consciousness, I couldn’t move. My hands, legs and even my head was being held down by loads of men. I could hear the man chanting away and giving instructions to not let me go as apparently the “devil will want to resist and get up”. I also felt someone pricking my feet with a sharp pencil and my toe was in agony. This is a very unnatural and terrifying moment. I wasn’t prepared for what happened next. 

Surrounded by strange men and unable to move, I begin to cry and tried to call for my family. Next thing I knew, water started pouring water on my face. I couldn’t breathe and as I had my mouth open, I started choking on the water. There must have been seven to eight men holding me down and I could see three standing above me with one litre bottles of water continuously pouring water on my face. I screamed as loudly as I could, gargling and choking sounds in between for my family. Each time I did, more water would be poured down to my face. I knew if I didn’t do something that I would drown and die within seconds. “Bobbbbby……save me….this is Angie”  I choked out. 

I heard the holyman say “its the devil hahhaha…..nice try, don’t listen to it. Its very clever trying to make us believe its her” and I screamed “Nooooo its me” and I heard my mother screaming to be let inside the room. I heard her say to my friend “She is going to die…..I thought you were her friend” and then I heard my father push in shouted at the man to stop. I cannot tell you how relieved I was as I was already starting to feel dizzy and had so much water in my nose, mouth and throat that I knew with certain that a second more I would could have died on that cold cemented floor.  

I never spoke to that friend again nor did I seek the help of a charlatan ever again. She did nothing to help me and in fact stopped my family from entering the room. She shrugged off the whole thing and didn’t seem to understand how scared I was. I shut myself out from spiritual matters and focused on went to temples or churches. My bad luck were merely challenges who made me who I am and they were certainly nothing to do with curses or spells.

So for many years I set aside my spirituality and hated it. This didn’t mean that they stopped appearing or speaking to me. In fact they became more obvious as the years went by. I would get prophetic dreams, messages, signs, see, hear and sense spirit wherever I went. I helped friends, cleared houses, read cards and would get strong feelings about people or situations. People were at times grateful, overwhelmed or scared off. No one really likes someone who “knows” things especially if they are insecure. I wasn’t trained so I went bumbling around life with this burden around my shoulders. 

In September 2013 my life changed, for the better. What I resisted for my whole life came right at me and I was smacked in the face literally to face up to who I was! Sometimes you have to be pushed to the edge to see the truth. I stopped fearing spirits and embraced my calling. Fate & Fortune Magazine

This is the driving force behind my psychic and mediumship workshops. You don’t have to walk through life feeling as though your gifts and abilities are a burden. You don’t have to be scared of spirits. I hope my story has inspired you. Please feel free if you want to ask any questions and if you want information about my next workshop.

Believe

Believe

Today has been a rather intense from both a positive and negative. I have been getting messages from friends, family and followers about vivid dreams and strong emotions. I woke up with some pretty amazing lucid dreams this morning and a few things fell into place for me which was fabulous. I spent this afternoon meditating on today’s energy and asked my guides for some wisdom.
The meditation was intense. From colours moving around me to guides appearing to visions and deep levels of understanding, it was simply magical!
My guide stepped forward to give us this message:
The venom that exist in us, drives us away from our true meaning, the purpose, our destiny, the source.
Keep still, be blessed, be true and believe in the journey. 
You will see the light, the source, the love and the meaning.
Believe.
I reflected on the message tonight and I this is what was channeled to me: The venom he speaks of, is our ego, that drives us away from our true purpose which is to be happy and to be loved. Our ego to want to be loved, to be some body, to compare, to envy others and to attack, makes our lives more complex than it needs to be. It also encourages us to fill up our body and mind with negative emotions e.g anger, resentment, envy, aggressiveness, self depreciation which leads to outbursts, depression, unhappiness and so much more. The guidance is to keep still – by meditation, focusing on the moment and to keep positive. This will lead you out of the tunnel of darkness and into the true purpose of your life.
Why is this message important now? Because today and for the next 24 hours, we have an opportunity to accelerate our ability to manifest our heart’s desire. Remember that we manifest both good and the bad. Therefore on days like today and on New/Full moons, you need to be aware of what you are manifesting. If you go about the whole day being angry, speaking negatively and saying things like “I will NEVER be able to do…..” or wishing bad things on other people, you will be reflecting it all back to yourself. Always think of a mirror in front of you and things you are wishing for, good or bad, bouncing off and coming back to you.
I was very aware of the fact that I had fallen into a deep altered state and I do that very regularly. It was hard in the early days when I started to meditate. I did all the things people tell me – fall asleep, couldn’t focus and kept being distracted by thoughts. But with enough practice and dedication, it becomes easier and natural. I do have days when my mind won’t settle and I just leave it and do it at another time or another day. You don’t HAVE to meditate, you should WANT to meditate. If it becomes a chore, it will be difficult and frustrating. Once you feel its a pleasure, a treat or a fun thing to do, then it becomes easier and part of your routine.
Today I was shown like a few days ago, some future life visions. It was like someone was taking me into the future where some of the things I am trying to manifest has already happened. I did not even set the intention for this when I started to mediate so I was deeply surprised by what I experienced. I can’t really go into some of the things I saw as its personal but I was given a message about a future event which we will be hearing about.
I was taken deep into the sea where the waters were dark and the light to the surface was so far away that it seemed almost impossible to reach. I could not see any form of life around me. Hardly any fish or sea life that I could recognise or detect. I looked ahead and I saw sharp dagger like things jutting out. I knew that although we were deep down in the ocean, we were no where near the sea bed. And then as I looked further and and further into this range of pointy reefs, I noticed an object. It was a plane and it had nose dived into the ocean. It was still in tact and I was told the passengers were still inside this plane and that they had all passed fairly quickly. 
Part of me wanted to rush over as fast as I could to help but I knew I was merely an observer. The next message scared me. My other guide, the Indian, whispered ” Madagascar to Philippines” and then he said, a water related disaster is coming. I wrote down some of the words but also sketched a swirl like a tornado. He also showed me the plane dislodge itself from this reef. I sat and reflected on this message and it became clear that some sort of disaster would occur and the plane will be found. Which plane, when, where ……they were not clear. I will continue to ask them for guidance. 
What ever it is, I ask for mercy for the innocent and the poor. The world needs more peace, love and prosperity, not pain. I finished with a deep healing session for family and friends. I also feel i connected with someone who was spitting blood. It was really vivid and I felt like this person needs some support. There were lots of lovely spirit families around when I sent off the distance healing. It was so powerful and lovely.